GROWN UP

 Bismillah.

The urge to write and express my thoughts and feelings come again after a long time. Thanks to Jaulah to Sabah gangs who shared their blogs and coaxing me to write too, I've found back this old scent. Scent of writing overwhelming my world same goes to my drawing mood too.

When I'm typing now, yeah, I sensed a kind of nostalgic feeling, typing for two hours, thinking what I'll share in my blog when I got back from hostel. hahaha.. I missed those feelings.

Nothing significant to share though for today.

It's just there's several incidents that occur during the Jaulah in past week and things that occur in this week made me curious and anxious in the same time.

Oh yeah, yesterday I updated this blog with Jaulah's story (lah sangat), however before I could successfully updated it here, I've read through my past posts from the latest one (not really latest though) until my very first post.

*ma shaa Allah istighfar panjang bila baca posts yang lama-lama tuuuu

hahaha.. Then, I read my friends blogs too and when I read Aula's blog, I realized something. When I make a comparison between my older posts with the latest one, I nodded and understand something.

oo.. I've already grown up. How come I never realize this thing. hehehe.. Anyone who've been growing up with me, or at least reading all the posts in this blog will know how much I've changed (I just realized it yesterday you know. hahaha).

There's nothing bad about making a change. Especially a change towards a better path and attitude. I always heard people say,

"Jadi ja diri sendiri, pedulik apa orang lain nak mengata"

However, if our real-self is a bad one, full of envy, anger, hates, and a lot of bad manners, why don't we make a change? We don't have to be an angel dramatically because how could a mere creature like us be perfect? So then, learn slowly and try it slowly. Be consistent and when you start to make a turning point towards the straight path, this is the right time for you to apply this quote,

"Pedulik apa orang nak mengata! aku yang nak jadi baik!"

and proceed with your struggles.

We've grown up and we could never go back to the past when we're still innocent kids. Again, we've grown up.